day i dunno who cares and all that

I was down to 283.0 and my DH and i went out yesterday to eat...i wanted steak, he wanted freakin chinese, do i ever get my way,hell freakin no so we eat chinese...not only do i eat it and it doesnt even taste that good cause its not my usual place...my blood sugar goes up to 290...freakin horrible...its been so damn good since watching the carbs and stuff....well to today after church what happens...the GIRLS beg me to take them to chinese...what is this?!?!?!? So we go the usual place...i was gonna not eat, just order diet soda or water or something...well like THAT really happened....yeah i ate and ate so two days of eating prolly fuc*ed up three four days of being good....oh well thats always happening.....tomorro will prolly be 295lbs and start losing from scratch...i hate myself....